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 I don’t have any pics from today, so here’s a pic of Spaghetti trying to steal my pillow.

Who can work under these conditions!?

We heard back from our potential landlord, and we didn’t get the house.  It’s frustrating because I message places every day, and he was the only one so far who was taking us seriously.  

Many ads are scams.  Many that aren’t won’t take section 8.  Many that will aren’t accessible at all for Aaron, having no bedrooms or no bathrooms on the main floor.  Some won’t take people who have no credit, or who aren’t employed.  I have work, but I’m not employed.  The rest get snapped up.

Like this one did.

So I fell into a very upsetting place.  I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts since childhood.  It’s not difficult to slip into them still.  I felt as if there was no way out with my family whole.  

But I can’t leave the kids to face all this Shit alone, so here I am.

Still searching.

Still considering just buying an RV and finding some place to park it.  

But land is also expensive.  Cheapest I found was $8k ish for a spot to park an RV.

Aaron tells me he wants to live on a bus.  To be fair, that’s been his dream since preschool.